Do you ever get stuck in a comfortable place? You want something that’s in front of you, but your comfort of your current circumstances leaves you wanting without trying for it?
My brain is getting better. It’s exciting to think about all the things I’ve accomplished at the end of each day and rejoice knowing that it is by the Living God’s healing that I have come as far as I have. I’m processing thoughts, coming up with ideas, and am able to make decisions way quicker. Mind wise, I’m functioning back to normal and boy does it feel freeing! I’m able to think towards the future and get excited about all the possibilities again. Thank you to the Lord and to all you who contributed to make my therapies possible.
Though most of my symptoms have reduced and my mind is working tickety-boo, my body is lagging. I’m still experiencing some symptoms and noticing that I’m still exhausted, not sleeping right, and getting muscle twitches and cramps. I’ve been praying about it and asking the Lord what I’m missing. Is there something else I should be doing to get better or is this it?
Slowly, over time, I’ve felt the interest to exercise again. I’ve tried here and there, but I’m finding that I hit walls of greater symptoms or end up sick from it. My body has been stuck for the past four and a half years of minimal exercising and my muscles are weak. My brain is used to the comfort of my body sedentary, but at the same time is struggling with how weak I’ve become. It was time to make a change, but how?
Thankfully, I still have some money left over from the donations of very generous people that gave to pay for my vision therapy. I have a couple other minor health things I thought about using it for, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt the Lord nudging me to use that money to get my body stronger. I know that the more I can rebuild my exercising, the more the symptoms will eventually disappear and my brain will adjust to a healthier, more active lifestyle.
I talked to Michael about it a couple of times. He thought it was a good idea – both times. Then he finally said, “Why are you still thinking about this? Why haven’t you done anything yet? Call and book the appointment.”
To be honest, I didn’t know why. Why was I nervous about going to physiotherapy for my body? I work in a physiotherapy clinic. I see the successes people are having, overcoming their injuries, reducing pain, and getting back to their routines of life.
Then it hit me. I was comfortable. Just like I was before I started the vision therapy. I was hopeful that it would work, but I was nervous to try it in fear that I might regress again afterwards; In fear that I would fail. In fear of the temporary pain it would cause.
But enough is enough. I realize that I am stuck in my comfort zone and I need to give myself a swift kick to get going again. I emailed one of the physiotherapists that I work with last week. She is very excited about the opportunity to help get me going again.
So, I began the next chapter of my recovery yesterday. My accountability and help have begun. She’ll be working on my neck and shoulders, as well as coaching me through exercises. I’ve asked her to help me get back into a full-body workout plan by the end of the year. I feel, by the Lord’s promptings, that this is the next phase of recovery. And, Lord willing, will be the final one. I know that exercising will help my brain, symptoms, sleep, marriage, and even possibly the ability to travel once again.
I’m saying enough. It’s time to move on. It’s time to take these final steps of faith toward full healing. I’m nervous and excited all at the same time. I feel that the Lord is bringing this chapter to a close. The final one is being written and I am SO excited to see where it all leads.
Is there something you’ve wanted to do for a while now? Are you nervous to take that leap into it and leave the comfort zone you’ve been in? What is it? What’s holding you back? Join with me and take the steps of faith needed to begin. Let me know what you’re up to so we can cheer each other on.
In the words of pastor Craig Groeschel, “It’s time to stop trying and start training!”
Here we go!
